Tuesday, September 18, 2012

the day in pictures continues on. . .

9 - the completed paperwork

10 - the family with Mrs. Tan, a woman who works at the orphanage.  Mrs. Tan wanted to hold Lili for this picture, but Lili refused to let her.  We took this as a very good sign!!
11 - Huigong Square - the place where Lili was found the day after she was born.  It is in the center of a very busy traffic circle, very close to the train station.  There was no place to park, so we just had to take pictures from the van window while our driver drove by slowly.  Our driver said that he suspected that Lili's biological parents traveled here by train from wherever they lived to bring Lili to a very busy place where she would be found very quickly.  If that is true, they were probably unable to pay the medical bills to have Lili's surgery done and brought her here hoping that she would be found, become a ward of the state, and have the procedure done at the government's expense.  They must have hoped for a better life for her than they thought they could provide.  It is a very humbling thought that we get to play a part in providing that for her.  May God be glorified for the way He takes terribly difficult circumstances and weaves them into something beautiful.



the day in pictures continued. . .

5 - putting her hand stamp on the paperwork

6 - Eddie and me thumbstamping paperwork - notice the decoration on Ed's eye - Lili was so pleased with the "new look" she gave him!

7 - cousin Aliya's old crocs fit just right - thank you Auntie Jen!!

8 - a sweet smile from a very patient girl!



Monday, September 17, 2012

the day in pictures. . .

1 - skyping with the family at home - Lili got to see her big brothers and sister on Skype this morning!  She was very quiet and didn't say anything - just watched carefully.  Of course, she had just woken up, so she was still quite sleepy. . .

2 - on "Baba's" (Daddy's) lap in the van on the way back to the Civil Affairs office this morning to complete more paperwork.  There are no seatbelts or car seats.  I suspect that after getting used to riding everywhere on our laps she will not appreciate her carseat much when we get home!
3 - fun with stickers - keeping herself busy while we worked on paperwork
4 - peekaboo with her cheerios - she enjoyed feeding herself (and Ed and me) her cheerios



a peaceful night

Our first night was very peaceful and sweet.  Lili took quite a while to settle down and fall asleep, but she wasn't upset, just fidgety and playful.  And affectionate - she kept giving me kisses.  Although we first laid down at about 8:30, she didn't fall asleep until 10:30 or so.  I think I actually fell asleep before she did.  We all slept peacefully until about 2:30, when I woke up, wide awake.  It must have been the Lord waking me up, readying me, because about 10 minutes later, Lili fell out of bed!  Thankfully, the beds are pretty low to the ground.  She didn't cry out at all, just looked a bit bewildered.  I picked her up and tried to reassure her - it must have been disorienting - but she didn't seem upset.  But she was wide awake.  And fidgety, playful, and affectionate all over again.  I was glad to be already wide awake - I was able to enjoy her antics and cuddling with her and to try to help her settle back down again.  But it took quite a while.  She finally fell back to sleep at 4:30, and is still out.  We have yet to see any tears from our sweet girl!  I'm sure they will come sooner or later, but we are enjoying her cheerful personality and her willing affection.  What a joy she is! 

joy comes in the morning

Warning - this is a very long post!!  As you can see from the pictures, after a difficult night, joy came this morning.  We arrived at the Civil Affairs office at 10 am.  We walked into a small room where we were going to meet Lili.  There were already 2 other families in the room with their new little ones - one with a little girl around Lili's age and the other with a little boy who looked a bit younger.  Both, I believe, were from the same orphanage as Lili.  As my eyes searched the room, I didn't even see Lili, but she was already there, waiting for us.  I didn't expect that - I thought for sure we would beat her there.  She had had to travel at least an hour to get from the orphanage to the Civil Affairs office, and we had been told that there was a lot of construction on the roads there, so she might be delayed.  A woman called her name, and brought her over to us.  I didn't recognize her - she has had her hair cut since the last pictures we received.  We both kneeled down on the floor and the woman told her that we were "Mama" and "Baba," and Lili repeated, "Mama, Baba."  Ed reached out to hug her, and she willingly went right to him and gave him a hug, and then gave me one as well.  We gave her the backpack we'd brought for her, full of little toys and gifts.  She immediately got excited about the light-up ball that Kegan picked out for her.  We played with that for a few minutes, and then got out her little photo album of family pictures and looked at that with her.  She seemed to get excited about each thing we brought out for her, and enjoyed pulling each item out and playing with it, then putting it back and finding another item to explore.  While she played with Ed, our escort, Tracy, helped me fill out paperwork, answering questions about why we wanted to adopt her, how we would take care of her, and lots of other basic information such as our occupations, address, birth dates, etc.  We sat on the floor and filled in the blanks while Ed played with Lili.  She has such a ready smile and the sweetest little giggle!  There were no tears and she didn't seem apprehensive at all!  What an answer to prayer!  I realized about 15 minutes into our meeting that my stomach wasn't tied in knots anymore.  Another woman from the orphanage - Mrs. Yan or Tan - I wasn't sure which - brought us Lili's special items.  She gave us 2 CD's of pictures of Lili as she was growing up in the orphanage, a couple of memory books containing progress reports and photos from the Half the Sky program that works with Lili's orphanage, the photo book we sent to Lili of our family, a beautiful photo album of photos of Lili taken by a local photo studio, and a copy of the finding report placed in the newspaper when Lili was originally found.  Our escort was amazed that we got so many special items from Lili's life up till now, and needless to say, we were too! 
We played with Lili for a while longer, signing papers and waiting for our escort to translate them, and then we moved on to another room to have our family picture taken.  Lili was so cooperative and cheerful!  Our escort said several times how amazed she was that Lili seemed so comfortable with us already!  She seems to like to have her picture taken - she flashes her beautiful smile every time and then wants to see the picture right away.  She is obviously no stranger to the camera!  After the family picture, we were ready to leave.  Lili slipped her little hands into ours - one in Ed's hand and one in mine - and confidently walked right out of the building with us.  As we climbed into the van, the driver commented that he was surprised that she didn't seem upset at all.  She sat on my lap and continued to go through the items in her backpack as we drove back to the hotel.  We went up to our room to change her clothes (she had gotten a bit wet in a little squatty potty incident at the Civil Affairs office - I won't go into any embarrassing details).  I didn't know if she would be uncomfortable with being changed, but as soon as I took her into the walk-in closet and showed her some of the clothes in the suitcase, she immediately started pulling her shirt off to change.  She picked a cute little flowered sundress and let me change her willingly, then went back into the room, grinning proudly.  We played in the room for a few minutes, and then went out for some lunch with our escort.  We had dumplings and sweet and sour fish.  It was really tasty and she wolfed everything down as soon as we put it onto her plate.  After lunch we said goodbye to our escort and headed back to the hotel for a nap.  She laid down willingly, but took a little while to settle down.  She fidgeted and played for a while, and I wasn't sure she was ever going to fall asleep, but it was such fun to cuddle with her I really didn't care if she did or not.  Finally, she settled down and started sucking her thumb, and she was out.  And Ed and I fell asleep too.  Not such an amazing thing for Ed - he's been sleeping like a baby since we got here, but a real relief for me!
She slept a solid 2 hours - maybe more - I can't remember what time we finally settled down.  nvnz.,msm,a,.a  msw (That was a contribution from Lili.)  After she woke up, we looked at books for a while.  Eddie wasn't feeling very well - lunch didn't agree with him, poor guy.  So I gave Lili a bath and then we went out to explore the hotel so that Ed could rest a while longer.  We went to the hotel's "kids' room" which is pretty tiny, but Lili had a wonderful time playing on the slide that went into a ball pit.  She laughed and laughed - it was such fun to watch her!  She seemed intrigued by the hotel pool, so maybe we'll try that tomorrow.  After that we went back to the room and ordered a big bowl of beef noodle soup from room service for us to share (since Ed wasn't feeling up to eating).  After dinner, we played a bit more.  She even started giving me kisses this evening!  Then I got her ready for bed.  I laid down with her for about 45 minutes, but she still isn't asleep, so I decided I'd better quickly finish this post before I fall asleep waiting for her to get to sleep!  Praise the Lord, I think that might actually be a possibility tonight! 
Please pray for Ed, that he wake up feeling better.  And for a good night's sleep for all 3 of us.  It's been a wonderful day - so much smoother than I could have ever dreamed of!  Thank you so much for your continued prayers!!   

today's pictures

1 - 4  I guess these pictures are pretty self-explanatory - they were taken at the Civil Affairs office where we first met Lili.

more pictures

5 - so proud of her new dress!
6 - enjoying her noodles - she's a good eater!  The lady from the orphanage made a point to tell us that she likes to eat a lot!
7 - enjoying her yogurt drink - she is very good at sharing. . .whenever she wants to take another drink, she always offers it to Ed or me first.  So cute, but when we don't want any we have to pretend to take a drink - she insists!



Sunday, September 16, 2012

a new day

5 am.  It's finally morning, or at least, I've decided that I'll call it that.  I am so ready for the night to be over.  This has been the most difficult night I've ever had.  I may have slept for 3 hours total.  Maybe.  And the rest of the time I spent lying in bed, my stomach tied in knots, praying and praying and trying to remind myself of God's truths.  That He doesn't want me to be anxious.  That He wants to give me peace that passes all understanding.  But most of all, that His strength is made perfect in weakness.  Because I have never felt this weak before, not that I can remember.  I never expected it to be like this.  I expected to have trouble sleeping, but purely out of excitement, not out of anxiety.  I am excited, don't get me wrong.  But anxiety continually threatens to override my excitement.  I feel like I'm in the middle of a battle.  It is very hard for me to write this, to be this vulnerable.  I'm not sure I want everyone reading this to know how much I'm struggling.  But I know I need your prayers, so I want you to know how to pray for me.  I know that I am extremely overtired, and I've never coped well with being overtired.  And I know that this will pass.  I can't tell you how much it meant to finally get out of bed this morning and to read comments on my last post, to know that you are praying for us.  Please keep praying!  I will post again later, after we meet Lili.  I have been praying that she would be able to sleep a lot better than I did.  God is faithful, I know He is, and I know He is with us.    To Him be the glory.

prayer please!

It's about 11 pm.  I went to bed at a little after 9, and woke up again at 10:30.  I'm feeling awful - sick to my stomach.  I honestly don't know if it is from what I ate for dinner or if I'm just anxious.  I feel so silly writing that!  But please pray for me.  I need some rest, but I can't sleep feeling like this.  Thank you for all of your prayers! 

more pictures. . .

5 - the noodle restaurant where we ate dinner (the one with the lanterns hanging), called 4 Seasons Noodle House (or something like that) - 2 big bowls of beef noodle soup cost us 21 yuan which is about $3.50. . .we asked the hotel concierge to recommend a noodle restaurant, and this is the one he sent us to.  He wrote the Chinese characters down for us so we could find it.  And I learned something interesting. . .some of the Chinese characters are also used in Japanese writing.  They mean the same thing in both languages, but they don't sound the same when they are pronounced.  (I'm not sure I explained that very well, but anyway. . .)  So when they said the name of the restaurant it didn't mean anything to Ed, but when they wrote the characters, he could read that the characters said "Four Seasons Noodle."  (Jen and Christine, you are probably laughing at me right now!)
6 - a t-shirt I found at a store we were poking around in - I thought the message was very surprising. . .and a very good reminder!

7 - a snack we picked up at a store down the street - they're Oreos with flavored middles.  I'm not usually a big Oreo fan, but I couldn't resist trying these.  Not sure what the middle flavoring is - Ed thinks maybe green tea or melon. . .either one sounds yummy!

more exploring. . .

Today was a free day, without any planned activities.  We thought when we woke up that we would need to go shopping for some things for Lili (pullups, baby wash, clothes, etc.), but when our luggage arrived (yippee!!) we didn't have to do that after all.  We thought we'd ask the hotel concierge if he knew how to get the square where Lili was found, but he didn't know where it was.  So we just spent some more time walking around, exploring Shenyang.  We visited Chairman Mao Square (as you can tell from the pictures in the previous post) and then ended up back on the main shopping street we went to last night.  It was a lot more fun to explore when we didn't have to find anything in particular, although the exchange rate continues to baffle me.  I know that about 6 yuan equals a dollar, but I just haven't gotten the hang of seeing a price and quickly figuring out how much it would cost in dollars.  I just know that 100 yuan is about $16, and I try to use that to give me a rough estimate.  I guess more practice will help.
It was fun to watch people as we walked around.  We even got to see a toddler in split pants squatting right in the middle of the sidewalk!  I know - not a typical tourist attraction, but I'd heard that was how it was done here, and now I've seen it for myself!
We were supposed to meet our escort today, but her flight into Shenyang was delayed.  We talked to her on the phone though, and we are going to meet her tomorrow in the lobby of the hotel at 9:40 am and then head over to the Civil Affairs Office to meet Lili at 10!  I can't believe it - we're almost there!!

some pictures from today. . .

There were too many pictures from today to get into just one post, so I split them up. . .
 The statue of Chairman Mao in Chairman Mao Square, which is just down the street from our hotel. . .I don't know if you can tell from the picture, but it is HUGE - maybe 30-40 feet tall?  Not sure, but definitely BIG. . .our escort told us a joke about it.  A grandma and her grandson were walking by the statue, and the grandma asked the boy, "What is Chairman Mao doing?"  The boy thought for a while, then answered, "Trying to get a taxi!"
Ed and me in front of the statue.  The square is in the middle of a very busy traffic circle - it was quite a feat to get across the street to reach the square.  With no traffic lights and heavy traffic, it posed quite a challenge!
 The street our hotel is on, called Nanjing Beijie Street - our hotel is on the right side. . .
 Mr. Lee, who bears a striking resemblance to a certain Colonel. . .could it be a KFC knockoff?

Saturday, September 15, 2012

Lili's birthday

Today is Lili's birthday - she is four years old today.  I wish we could spend this day with her.  I doubt birthdays are celebrated at the orphanage where she lives.  It will probably be simply another typical Sunday for her today.  At one point, I had hoped that we might meet her on her birthday.  But when I expressed that thought to Ed, he said, "It would probably be the scariest birthday she's ever had."  And he was right.  I selfishly thought it would be fun to meet her on her birthday, but it probably wouldn't make for a fun birthday for her.  So I hope that there is something special in store for her today where she is.  And tomorrow is significant as well.  It was the day she was found on the lawn in Huigong Square.  And it will be the day that she finds her family.
On another note, the front desk just called to tell us our luggage is here!  Not just here in Shenyang, but here in the hotel!  Praise the Lord!!  Thank you for your prayers!  The Lord is definitely with us here in Shenyang!

awake and thinking

It is currently 1:45 am here in Shenyang.  And I'm awake.  Not that I'm surprised.  I really need sleep, but I can't seem to stop thinking long enough to get it.  And struggling a bit with nausea.  I don't think I've eaten anything bad, it's probably just because I haven't slept much in the past 2 days and my body has no idea what time it is or what is going on.  Add in a bit of anxiety about lost luggage and the anticipation of meeting my daughter on Monday, and I get an upset stomach.  Any kind of stress in my life always seems to manifest itself in my digestive system.
But I can't help but think that my disoriented feelings are only a tiny taste of what Lili will be (and maybe already is) going through.  I wonder if she will feel sick to her stomach too.  If she'll lie awake when she should be sleeping.  I'm sure she will be feeling anxious and disconcerted.  Maybe my little taste of these feelings will deepen my compassion for her as she struggles through this transition.  Lord, please use this to teach me, to equip me to sympathize (even just a tiny bit) with Lili in a way I wouldn't have been able to otherwise.  Please be with her, and give her Your peace that passes all understanding.  And give us wisdom to know how to support her and comfort her.  And. . .maybe just a few more hours sleep for me?  Thank you, Lord, for being here with us!  We need you! 

The adventure begins. . .

We've arrived in Shenyang!  Our flights went pretty smoothly - no major delays.  I definitely underestimated the difficulty of getting a decent night's sleep on the plane and only managed to sleep about 3 hours total, but Ed fared better and got at least 5 hours.  We watched movies and kept ourselves busy for the most part. 
But. . .our luggage didn't make it.  We checked 3 bags at LAX and haven't seen them since.  We were told when we checked in at LAX that we would need to pick up our luggage at the baggage claim in Beijing and then re-check it for the connecting flight, but the bags never got to Beijing.  So we went ahead and caught our connecting flight to Shenyang and filed the paperwork for the missing luggage here.  So much for the idea of putting some of each of our clothes into each others' bags in case we lost one!  It's not the worst thing that could happen, but it is a bit disconcerting.  I spent so much time analyzing what to bring and how to pack it all into 3 suitcases, and now we don't know if we'll ever see any of that stuff again!  But it's all just stuff.  I guess the Lord really wants us to just trust Him and not to trust in all our careful preparations.  But if you remember, please pray for our luggage to turn up soon! 
Shenyang is quite a large city!  Lots of construction going on all over the city.  Our guide told us that there are over 8.1 million people living in Shenyang - that's more than double the population of LA!  We arrived at our hotel at around noon, and we were able to Skype with the kids before they went to bed.  It sounds like they have a fun weekend planned!  Thank you, Halls, for taking them under your wings!  We had lunch, caught a nap, and then went out in search of some essentials to at least get us through the next couple of days if our luggage doesn't turn up.  Thankfully, there's a Walmart within walking distance of our hotel.  We walked down and found most of the things we needed - basic toiletries, underwear, a pair of pants and a couple of t-shirts for Ed.  We even found deodorant, which I had heard was not easy to find in China.  But I couldn't find any clothes for myself.  Unfortunately, the fall clothes are in and there are very few short sleeved items available.  I almost had to get a bright pink t-shirt with "Tell me your secrets" written across the front, but my vanity wouldn't allow me to pull the trigger.  I didn't want to have to go all over town looking for clothes, but as we walked out of Walmart we saw a Uniqlo across the street and I found some clothes there.  I was very happy to have something else to change into - after so many hours in the clothes I wore on the plane I was not a very sweet-smelling girl!  (Sorry if that's too much information. . .)
Well I've really gone on and on. . .just a couple of random observations in closing:
1.  Crossing the street here is quite treacherous.  We were warned about this, but it's a whole new ball game when you experience it.  The cars really have no intention whatsoever of letting you cross and they will run you down if you get in their way!
2.  If you ever stay at the Crown Plaza Hotel in Shenyang and have a desire to turn on the bathroom lights, you will need to know that the light switch requires a room key.  In fact, you have to keep a room key in the light switch slot at all times if you want to use the lights in the room.
Below are some pictures from our day.  Sorry I can't write captions under each one - Blogger is blocked in China, so I have to upload posts via email and I don't have much control over the format of the post.   
1 & 2 - views from our hotel window
3 - the entrance to the Walmart
4 - a few items that we found at Walmart - I don't think our Torrance store stocks these!
5 - the view walking back to the hotel from shopping - the whole street is blocked off because they are tearing it up to build an underground mall. . .this shot was taken at about 6:30 pm tonight - I guess when there's only one time zone for a huge country the east side of the country gets dark pretty early!
(Sorry, the pictures are pretty pitiful, I'm just taking shots from my iPhone - haven't broken out the nice camera yet - not that my photography skills will improve much!)

Saturday, September 1, 2012

Contemplations. . .

I am feeling contemplative today.  Anxiously anticipating the new addition to the family in 16 days.  And thinking about what I was thinking about and how I was feeling 16 days before the arrival of each of my older kids.  Many of the thoughts and emotions are the same. . .silly, shallow stuff like "Should I buy just one more outfit?  This one is just too cute to pass up;" deeper stuff like "How can I be the best mom possible to this new little one?"  Feeling like I can't wait to meet them; imagining what their little faces will look like when I first see them.  All of these feelings are the same.  The big difference is, with the older ones, I knew I had to endure some pain to get to that moment.  Totally worth it, but still, it was going to hurt - a lot.  But this time I won't have to endure that pain.  No, I won't, but someone else will.  And that is my precious little one.  It bring tears to my eyes thinking about it.  No, she won't be feeling contractions, but there will be pain just the same.  It will come from leaving all that she has ever known, her culture, her country.  It will come from starting from scratch in so many ways.  It will come from being passed over to (practically) complete strangers who don't understand the language she's spent 4 years perfecting, from leaving behind everyone she has ever loved.  And that pain is so much more awful than labor.  There's no epidural to allow her to rest and regroup.  And it doesn't just last for a day or two.  It will be pain that she will carry for the rest of her life.  Oh, it will get easier.  And we certainly hope that one day she will feel like it was worth it.  But I can't pretend it will be easy.  I'm so sorry, little one.  I wish I could endure the pain for you.  And I could never ask you to endure it if I didn't sincerely believe that it will be for the best for you.  But you can't understand that.  I pray every day that the Lord will whisper in your ear that you can trust us, that we will be good to you.  I pray that He will prepare you to join not just one new family, but two - His and ours.  And I trust that he will work all things together for your good.  But I just want you to know that I'm so sorry you have to go through this.  I love you with all my heart and I am praying for you.

With all my love. . .

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Countdown

Two weeks from today we will be driving to the airport to start our journey to go get our little one!!!  Counting the days. . .
(Our original referral photo of Lili) 
Just can't wait. . .

Monday, August 27, 2012

Gifts for Lili


Here are some fun things I found on Etsy to take to China for Lili. . .a backpack with her name on it from paigeholliday, a mini photo book with pictures of the family from Neatokiddo, and a name bracelet from JewelryByAimee.  Little girl things are so much fun!!

Getting carried away. . .

Friday, August 24, 2012

What does "Junli" mean?


 俊

I believe this is the way the name "Junli" is written in Chinese.  I did some searching on the internet today to find out what these symbols mean.  The second character is fairly straightforward.  It means "beautiful."  The first character is a little more difficult to translate it seems.  One website said that it means "talented," although that is supposed to be a masculine form of the name.  Another website said that the feminine form of "Jun" means "truth."  That reminds me of Isaiah 52:7  "How beautiful upon the mountains are the feet of him [or her] who brings good news, who publishes peace, who brings good news of happiness, who publishes salvation, who says to Zion, 'Your God reigns.'"  I pray that Lili will embody this verse in her life.

With love. . .

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

We have our tickets!

Today our travel dates were confirmed and we bought airline tickets!  It is exciting to finally have our flights set up - it makes it seem more real that we are going!  We will fly out at 1:40 am (ouch!) on Friday, September 14, arrive in Beijing about 12 and a half hours later, have a 3 and a half hour layover, and then take the short flight to Shenyang (about an hour and a half), arriving at 10:00 am on Saturday, September 15.  I can't wait to get started!!  Only about 6 more weeks to go. . .

Already packing. . .